How things roll here

I really don´t know how it happens.  It doesn´t matter how much I try to plan ahead and organize my time, things NEVER work out the way I had hoped.  As I look forward to this crazy month of June, I feel overwhelmed and scared of how that might work itself out.  This will be, as far as I can tell, the busiest month we have here in the office of Peace and Hope in Bolivia. 

We are frantically finishing up details for our group of volunteers that comes from McCallie school in Chattanooga.  Last week, we got our volunteer from Wheaton, who will be with us for 6 months.  We also have a visit from a fellow Peace and Hope worker from Lima.  And to top all that off, we have lots of workshops in the schools, and more abuse cases coming in everyday than we can handle.  Not to mention, troubles with paperwork with the bank we are also trying to resolve.  Drew and Juan have been out of the city for the past week, and that has left lots of work for us here in the office.  I have found myself throwing out the phrase ¨This is my gringa side, and I am STRESSED out because there is no possible way all this can get done! ¨  I have been working on months for many of these details to come through eariler, but things get backed up, and somehow, nothing has come through until right now in the midst of all the other crazy activities.  The Bolivians are even showing slight signs of stress this month, so I feel a little bit better about my feelings. 

It is extremely frustrating, and it seems that no matter how organized you may be, the system here doesn´t depend on if my ducks are in line or not.  I feel completely powerless sometimes.  It can be crippling.

Drew and I have to keep reminding eachother that sometimes these are good reminders, as frustrating as it might be.  This realization isn´t to provoke laziness and slacking on the job, but instead a steadfast faith that God is in control.  It isn´t my organizational skills, or the systems that run this country, or anything else that might actually accomplish anything, there is something bigger than all that at work here.  Its just that things aren´t running on my time schedule and the way I am used to things.  We are thankful that God has been faithful to us.  We are thankful that we have seen how much we depend on our own strength/organization/ideas and realized that those are shaky foundations.