Learning to trust

I guess we haven't been actively raising support for our work in Bolivia for much more than a month, but having only raised a few thousand dollars when we need $52,000 has been a little discouraging sometimes. At first we told ourselves that if this next step to Bolivia is really God's plan for our life, then we need only trust him to provide the way. Of course we still believe that but I guess I was not expecting God to make the road to get to the open door as long or rough as this. We are learning to trust Him. Sometimes I can't help but worry about where the money will come from. We aren't really used to being in that position. But I have to catch myself when i find myself talking or thinking about the money so much and just pray and remind myself that God is in charge of this.
And even more humbling is to remember that his timeline might not be what we had planned. Who knows? Or are we still relying too much on money, waiting until we have raised a "safe" amount before we take the plunge and move down there? But would it be foolish to just go without raising what we think we need? I say "what we think we need," because I know that only God knows what we really need. And that is what we are praying that he will show us: that we will know what we need and be content.
Then yesterday Ann spoke with Juan and Eva in Bolivia. She told them about how little we had raised up until now and rather than be discouraged, they were really excited! They were so thankful for the people who had donated to our mission and were so excited that God was moving people's hearts to join us in this work. I was humbled. I realized that I had not been thankful for the little that God has provided for us. Every single person who has donated money that they worked for and earned to help this work in Bolivia is giving up something that belonged to them that they could have used for something else. They have made a sacrifice. That is no small thing. And I am very thankful. We deserve none of this but God is providing a way for us to serve through the generosity of many people.
I know that through this experience I have certainly found myself being more generous to people who need support to do the work they do. I know what they have to go through now. And now I also see that on the other side I need to be a lot more thankful. I know living and working with Juan and Eva would be a "learning experience" to say the least. Now we haven't even arrived and they taught me my first lesson.